Before I even start this blog, I just want to put everybody’s concerns at rest by letting you know that I no longer self-harm. It is something that I have completely worked through and because of this I feel that I can help others do the same. I appreciate the support of those who have been with me during the journey and continue to be. Lots of love to you! My heart goes out to those who are still going through that pain and I wish you the best. Know that you are loved!
For much of my life I have suffered from depression and anxiety which, until the last year and a half, resulted in a vicious cycle of self-hate, burning unexplained rage and a feeling of being dead inside. On the other hand I was also able to occasionally love myself especially the ways in which I was different from other people, my empathy levels were super high and I have always felt the need to live a life that was above ordinary. I got to a point where I had to decide which end of the spectrum I was going to embrace, which meant that I would have to leave the other side completely behind. I chose the slightly hyper, tattoo covered, crazy haired, go-getter, live your dreams, super strong, super smart, nothing can stop me now side…and have never regretted it for one moment.
One of the things that is really important to that side of me is helping other people whenever I can. Even though everybody is in a different place on their journey, one of the biggest steps to moving forward is to heal ourselves. Many people who have overcome various degrees of hurt and life lessons often become counsellors to be able to help others, and they are known in the profession as…wounded healers.
Pain is a matter of perception, and we can never truly be in somebody else’s shoes, but having survived your own hardships makes it easier for you to help somebody else when they are facing challenges. Having gotten through a great deal of emotional, and physical, trauma I choose to do this by sharing my experiences, and the ways in which I have been able to move beyond the pain in order to #findmyhappy.